There is nothing easy
nothing perfect
and it is all a rough road
to nowhere
as you move forward
as you stumble
as you grow
as you get cranky
as you let go of everything
everyone and their fake niceties
the cloak most everyone hides behind out here
working.
I am quite sure
only that I don’t and I won’t work like that.
land let them all go
who try to be that paper mask of being….
I know
i struggle
to recognize faces
or pull data together fast
but
i get the jobs done just fine
thoroughly,
my way
building a foundation
and release each
work of art
out into the world
gone digging again
for what I need to drag forth
from a chart
as other did pieces of work
over weeks
when the finishing touches
are not
charted
the care aid and nurse who should know
don’t.
it feels like pulling teeth
as I do ground work
others clamour for now
as I realize they don’t actually know how
to do my job.
They wish they did
they think they do
and they try to tell me how
but the details are lacking
and it takes me time
no short cuts here….
letting it all do
setting it all down
maybe tomorrow.
that is all.