Now it’s a rough road
honey
it’s a long road honey
outta here…
ain’t no going back
ain’t no turning round,
simple now
one foot in front of the other
kee moving on
keep pushing ahead…
it’s long road honey,
it’s a rough road
outta here
and the only way to get clear
is to keep moving on,
keeping pushing ahead
cuz there is no going back,
no turning round
and healing
that takes time.
Time to pause
time to thinks dangerous
because then the mind wanders
to the ALS Intake for
PEG
tube insertion
to the dysphasia and dysphagia
that already have slurred speech
swallow that will lead to aspiration pneumonia
regardless….
the fall hazard
the cobbling together of supports
all that is not worth salvaging
or the violent demented patient
who was highly aggressive in LTC
whom they use restraints and security team each pad change
geripsych backing off the heavy sedation
Over Parkinson’s symptoms
and I think
he should already be dead
most certainly be sedated down into it
much further than this
regardless
but I am emotionally exhausted
And time to think
only breeds bitterness, anger and depression
of all that cannot be changed
but it is near spring
sunny
and I have time
to refocus
get back into highly structured routine
and forget about it all
again
for a while
workouts call
Painted love affair 