It has been a year
you step in and out of my life…
off to Ireland this time.
We cover ground
our personal lives
our parents
who we are
and how our lives thus far
have crafted us to become who are.
It strikes me
we are not so different you and I
we don’t talk to our fathers
we each have 2 siblings
I hope you find all it is you are looking for out there
as you set off to do one more thing on your bucket list
a life long dream
knowing full well you will spend only 4-5 months there
so perhaps you are settling down
consolidating a little
8 houses down to just 3 newer ones.
Money doesn’t bring us happiness.
People and connections do.
Can’t quite trust, that is what we have in common
well brought up, well educated
independent
yet we are fiercely protective
and you like to save them, those women you are with.
It is not lost on me
when you say you painted her house, bought one of the
Latest ones a new TV, then she ghosted you.
Or the fact that you dated 2 nurses of the 3 women
from the last year…
I am watching you slowly
as we stand arms around one another
staring our at the water and the setting sun
before you are off to do your next thing.
Highly empathic…you are.
You kiss my hair as we stand there
and I wonder if you will find all you are searching for
knowing you will be coming and going for
some time more
perhaps you will come back to tell me…
see I don’t trust, neither do you
our way of dating, relating
too casual
yet our core group of inner people
stays the same
and I can only wish you well
knowing full well
I have a life
it is here
and I’ll watch you come and go
chasing things
while you sort out
everything in your head
time churns and we learn
moving place to place
all the houses, material things
mean little
our key relationships mean everything.
So while you disappear out there
into the world
I can only hope you learn a great deal
heal a whole lot
don’t get hurt beyond what you can stand to bear.
That in time you come back
to tell me all you have learned.