Daily Archives: July 16, 2022
Snow ball
These days it is a bit harder to breathe
to get through a workout
and it has been a long haul
years of stress piled up
chronic intensity of it.
Talking to a yoga friend
I am reminded the world and history
is full
of intelligent, resilient people.
I simply need to find my way back.
My yoga friend reminded me that it was years in the making
this burnout
and it may take
a lot of time
to heal..
I don’t like being here
in this unknown place
where past trauma bubbles up
where reminders of work
where reminders of all I
Pushed through
come crashing in
like waves breaking to make me cry
sometimes
still.
This will continue
COVID outbreaks, deaths and short staffing everywhere.
The boomer cohort is dying out
twice as many people of age that need care
as there are people of age to do the caring
and amid it all
those doing the caring
are fewer
moral distress, moral injuries, chronic stress, burnt out
cut through those numbers
until—-
you have to put on your own O2 mask before you do so for someone else
you have to care for yourself
so that you don’t break,
don’t end up wrecked by it
the weight of it
but we are anyway…
being crushed under the weight of it.
Triggers are everywhere
and if young students are unmotivated
as we see them by their actions everywhere
aren’t able to fill in the ranks
where does that leave us
Faltering with no back up
a healthcare system
broken
under the weight of it
as we each are
the demands on our time
the ten thousand little requests
the endless stream of need out there
that can can scarcely meet.